This has got to stop...

This incessant eating.  It must end.  And what is scary is that I'm stuffing my face with whatever edible thing I can find.  It's no particular craving.  I'm not particularly hungry.  And what's even scarier?  I'm not walking or lifting weights; I'm not cycling, swimming or running (sadly).  I'm sitting on my arse in front of stupid (but I love them) television shows and LOADING MY FREAKING FACE LIKE A CHIPMUNK WITH ITS CHEEKS PUFFED OUT.

It's time to take a step back and evaluate.  I need to figure out why I'm doing this to myself.  It's not like it makes me feel good.  It makes me feel the complete opposite.  I feel like I've let myself down.  And the guilt...don't forget about the guilt.  But this I pledge to you.  I will NOT go back to that size 18 pant.  I will NOT let myself be tempted by the temporary euphoria food gives me; it's not real.  What is real is how good I felt when I was active and eating healthy; how confident I was and how I felt I could take on the world.

Tomorrow is December 1.  Tomorrow is a new day and a new month.  Tomorrow I will fight to get myself back.  This I pledge:

• food logs will resume
• workouts will resume
• lots of water will be drunk
• meals will be cooked at home
• no junk food will enter the threshold
• I will forego the Christmas cookie bake-a-thon
• I will remain honest about my progress
• I will hold myself accountable
• I will succeed.

Time to hop back on...

So folks, since I believe in nothing but honesty, I will tell you I had a rough time of it last week.  I took a nosedive off the nutrition wagon.  Mid-terms just about did me in this semester.  At first I thought I was handling it very well, I wasn't freaking out one bit.  But then I looked down and realized I was on my third bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch...and didn't stop there.

But that was last week.  Today is Monday and you know what I say about Mondays.  With every Monday is a fresh beginning!  So, to help myself get back on the wagon, I pledge the following:

• resume my food log 
• plan out my meals and go grocery shopping
• increase my water intake instead of alcohol intake
• keep the splurges to once in the evenings and not once at every meal
• keep to my workout schedule.  
• take my vitamins every day 
• to honor this pledge until Finals, at which time I reserve the right to take back everything I just said.  (smiles)

I'll let you know how it goes....

TTFN!