What Are Your Intentions?

I've been doing a lot of thinking these past few weeks.  It's been an interesting year.  Not stellar, not devastating.  I'm proud of some things and not so proud of others; but the beauty of this time of year is that we all get a blank check to make the next one better. I had already made this decision, quoting to some of my friends that "2017 will be the Year of Hope."  Kinda catchy, don't you think? Almost punny....

And then I came across this a couple days ago....  Kinda perfect, don't you think?  Now, I was joking about becoming a redhead but I have to be honest...kinda considering it!

Seriously.  Ridiculously amazing!

I write to you on the cusp of the new year.  I hope you read this before the drinks start flowing and the noise gets too much that you can't hear your own thoughts because I want you to take a moment to hear those thoughts.  To reflect on the past 365 days, to see what worked, what didn't, and maybe some things that could work but just maybe needs a little adjustment.  What do YOU want to do the same.  What do YOU want to do differently.  What will CHALLENGE you. 

I plan on taking some time to reflect on these things and to come up with a list to share.  I urge you to do the same.  I'm not talking about resolutions.  I'm talking about more than that.  I'm talking about intentions.  And yes, there is a difference.  Plug the word resolution into Google and you find "a firm decision to do or not to do something" or "the action of solving a problem, dispute, or contentious matter." Throw in the word resolute and you get "admirably purposeful, determined, and unwavering."  Each are indeed admirable and inspirational, but is it reasonable?  

They get you excited, primed and ready for the big race, the big game, the whole enchilada!  But what happens when the race is over, the final score is on the scoreboard and you went to town on that enchilada and made happy plate?  

What if we replaced the word resolution with intention?  "A thing intended; an aim or plan." There are other great definitions out there, but they all give me the same feeling; of something organic, something fluid allowing the ability to reassess, change and to grow with what is being thrown at you every which way every day.  Because that my friends, is life.  Life is unreasonable sometimes and how we react and how we deal cannot be absolute.  Why not allow ourselves the freedom of fluidity?  How can we grow if we are absolute, feet set and unwavering or unwilling to move?

So let's start.  What do you intend to do in the coming year?  I'll have more later, but one intention that comes immediately to my mind is to do things that I've missed and writing ranks right up there. 

So I hope you all will welcome me back to the interwebs because I intend to get back to my roots.  To get back to one of the things that helped me navigate through this second chance at living.

That and I might become a redhead.  Could be funny and you might not want to miss that...

Words for Wednesday

HTFU

I need to vent.

I don't know if anyone really reads these. But I'm having an issue.

I understand I look young. I normally don't get upset when I get carded for things. In fact, I usually have my license ready for them. So yes, I understand I look young. But when a store associate takes 5 minutes to look at my id, then ask me how old I am, rub my license to see if it's a fake, and then proceed to ask me for additional forms of ID, and then takes another 5 minutes to determine if I am at least eighteen years old, it does not make me a happy camper.

Now I have to go search my empty fridge for something to eat before LOST comes on.

Good tidings to y'all. Thanks for listening.

Drowning on Dry Land

Holy Shit.

Can they really do this to us? Can they really take the Grey out of the Anatomy? I still can't see straight, my eyes are blurry from the tears, and my head is starting to hurt. I can't even comment. I can't even be my witty self. Shonda Rhimes, what have you done!!!!!!!!! And how do you expect us to wait until next week. How much more can these interns take? Is there a show with out Meredith? How can this happen. To many questions, to many emotions, and Denny is back. And the cutie pie, Dillon I think his name was, is back. You remember him. He's the one that got blown to smithers from the bomb they extracted from the dude's body cavity. You know, the two episode arc after the Super Bowl last year. They are back. So you know what that means. That Meredith is on her way to those Pearly Gates. Will Denny tell her that there is still work to be done on earth? That she can't leave Derek yet? Or will he hold her hand and introduce her to St Peter? Oh my gosh I can't think straight. I don't know if Derek or Christina can recover from this. Even Addison felt bad, you could tell!!! How will Seattle Grace cope with that loss. Two brilliant Greys. Lost.

What the heck???

Is there anyone else in LOST La La Land that is just as confused as me? I thought they promised us answers. All we get is that Desmond has lived this life before and he relives it over without the power to change anything. So, he still looses Penny, still lands on the island, still turns the key. And then we find out our favorite hobbit will soon die. Are they doing a Lord of the Rings 4 and no one tell me? And we still don't know whyDesmond woke up naked after the hatch went caput. I'm sorry, naked men running around in the jungle disturb me. I need some closure....

The highlight of the night for me? Seeing Ed get hit by the bus in last week's episode that reaired at 9:00. CLASSIC JJ ABRAMS!!!

All I have to say is this. The executive branch of LOST has made some serious mistakes this season. This "let's show 6 episodes and let everyone forget about us and then show 16 after a 20 month hiatus" thing just didn't work. Now it looks as though "Michael" has found a new job and may not be back. Now Charlie is going to die, probably because he found a new job too. Why you ask? Because they needed to eat as well during the break and had to go out and find a supplement.

As you may already surmised, this was not my favorite episode. It just confused me more. How did the key make Desmond go "back in time"? And why did he WAKE UP NAKED?????

Oh - Happy St. Valentine's Day everyone
p.s. I got the best present ever!!!